That's got to be very difficult and scary to go through... I would say 'I can't imagine', but working in a hospital that has been inundated with COVID patients for almost a year, I can imagine. Hang in there and keep us updated!
Actually, I never felt fear in either case because the virus distorted my perception and basically morphined its own damage, leading me to blame self-neglect due to bad sleep, bad posture, tight muscles, etc. This February experience certainly could cause a panic if the load in my chest suddenly started becoming painful or if my heartbeat began to get irregular or really high but it never went that far. The mystery 2019 experience was much more burdensome and irritating since even into February, my mental irritability and lack of energy was still a problem. Not scary though.
The dental problem also has happened in the past, but on the other side of the mouth, and cause my lymph nodes to swell and inflict similar fatigue on me. So initially, I thought it was that.
I am highly suspicious I got the mutated strain or my initial immunity wore off. I don't know if I'll ever be able to confirm it. But the "life-sucking" phase this time was way too similar to the Nov. 2019 battery of symptoms for me to
a priori reject the notion. I wanted to move things up stairs in both cases, and in both cases, I'm quickly out of breath when I just moved a couple small things. The extraordinary need for sleep, which was near continuous in the 2019 version, and made me put signficance on the 3pm time point this time, and the increase in irritability and unwillingness to do anything because I'm physically annoyed. Yet in both cases, I was "miserably painless".
I would say my experience was intellectually valuable if only because what is reported as asymptomatic is actually virus-induced deception of perception or even boosting the feeling of some infected people with no harm at all.
I have been gradually started to get those little internal sensations and especially the feeling of pain in my muscles and bones again. Especially when just waking up at 5:35am. Left forearm really ached since I did a little light-duty lifting with a small UPS battery the day before.
After waking up this morning, the virus cough response was stronger, likely fighting its last stand. I went to sleep maybe at 2:51pm or something(near 3pm again) and woke up at 5pm. Now everything is back to being in control, with a quite few weak outbursts.
Also, weirdly, I only had three hours of practical sleep last night(2AM-5AM), but I feel like I can keep trucking, even right now. Normally, that kind of schedule would kill me for the whole day. I believe that once the virus is fully dead, this unusual stamina I have is going to go away.
This "feeling good" is actually effective and conducive for the survival of the virus as one would be normally out and about with these good feelings and just a "small cough".
Of the few adjectives I'd describe this thing, they would include deceptive, trickery, covert, stealthy, counterintuitive, gaslighter. Whereas the flu is like a guy who kicks the door down and vandalizes stuff in your face, the coronavirus is more like a burglar who moves a few things around but when you notice it, you can't be sure if it is just you, natural causes, or an actual intruder. Then one day, he reveals himself with a wicked smile on his face.