I kinda noticed when you weren't around anymore. Same with burgold.
WARNING! LONG SELF-INDULGANT RANT BELOW ABOUT THINGS LONG RESOLVED. FEEL FREE TO BYPASS.
Yeah, my exodus started with a ban that quickly became a choice. I was banned for using a direct quote with attribution inside quotation marks while following the ES protocol of not trying to avoid the profanity filter. It was a quote from Attorney General Barr discussing something political. It was pertinent and essential to the conversation. I admit when I woke up the next morning and found myself banned I was surprised. I had no idea what I did or what I could have done wrong. When I found out through some kind of auto-note, it bothered me. I still don't feel like I'd broken any rules and the mods never bothered discussing it with me, just cut me off, and basically said, "Kiss the ring if you want to come back. You can't post or even DM us until you do."
So, I decided to leave.
I have no problems apologizing or admitting error. It just struck me as if they were looking for a reason to oust me. I took it personally. I know others have dealt with worse, but it turned out that was enough for me.
Once I left, I never felt the desire to go back. It surprised me. I thought once we were winning I'd want to circle back and celebrate, but nope. It takes a lot to do something I can't rationalize or deal with, but they crossed that threshold. I suspect there were probably several other things accumulating over the years. For one, I hated the mega threads. I hated the idea that there were only three active threads going and people felt the need to apologize any time they started something new (I searched, but I couldn't find something on this so...) became the opening sentence of so many threads. Further, the megathreads seemed to make every discussion shallow and repetitive. Lastly, when I came to BGO even though it was during the worst of the Rivera run, I realized how hard the mood of the board had fallen. Everyone was despairing over there and groupthink created an environment where every blue note needed to be one-upped. I coined the Eeyore term long ago on ES, but it had gone so far beyond even Eeyore. I couldn't stand all these suicidally, depressed fans pretending their doomshouting was realism. Football and fandom is supposed to be fun. If the game isn't fun at least the tailgate ought to be. And maybe even more than being wronged, I think I just realized I couldn't take a place that had become some negative and so nervous.
There's probably some exageration in there, but once I start typing it's dangerous to try to stop
