You know, you live through years and years of rebuilding,retooling etc, which basically means suckage.
You get through the first ten years because just the sweet aroma of the Glory Days fumes still resonate and comfort you.
The next ten years,you're trying not to wimp out. It's gut check time for you and your fandom.
Now? Your just empty inside. You find yourself trying to watch old glory highlights on YouTube to get that feeling back but it only manages to bring a brief smile to your face.
You try to share that with your kids and all of a sudden you realize...OMG...you're that old guy that says " back in the day...my boys we're something else..."
So now I sit here with the fan gas tank drained,with the firm belief that this is as good as we will ever be. Maybe a fluke season like 2012 comes along once every ten,twelve years but as far as being a perennial contender? Nope. I can't ever see that happening here again.
I guess this weekend may be spent boxing up jerseys and caps. Packing t shirts and other apparel up and putting them away for maybe next year or heck, maybe my kids one day will open them for sentimental value.
Just totally lost right now....just like the team I root for.